Sunday, May 9, 2010

Open Letter to a Grieving Mother

Dear Friend,

I heard you say your daughter has died, and you don't think you can go on.
I felt compelled to share with you some thoughts which may comfort you.
I'm sure it's not much of a consolation and that your grief is profound, but please try to remember:

She is completely in spirit form now, and still as available to you as ever.
She is probably around right now, trying to comfort you in some way - Look out for little signs she may be sending you. I may be someone she sent your way. Her heart is reaching out to comfort you, and those of us who are feeling, sensing people, reach out to comfort when we receive the signal.

She wouldn't want you to be in pain. Try to think about how you would want her to feel if it had been the other way around. Grieve, yes, but also celebrate her life every chance you can. Try to remember the very thin veil between the living and the so-called dead. We are not so separate after all.

My friend *Adala lost her daughter Harata years ago. I knew Harata. Adala had two daughters. One, Yalda, was severely developmentally challenged. The other, Harata, was very gifted and was just about to graduate from college. Politically astute, loving, and openly bisexual, she was poised to change the world. Then her SUV overturned and in an instant, her life was over, and her boyfriend, who was in the passenger seat, was devastated, but relatively unharmed.

I attended the memorial ceremony and later spent time with Adala and her ex-lover, and our friends. I dyed Adala's hair with nontoxic dye from Whole Foods. We made a delicious chai tea with cinnamon and vanilla beans in a huge pot that lasted forever and was very comforting, and listened to an endless reel of various artists singing devotional and classical music from India.
Adala was Bangladeshi, her ex-lover Palestinian, and I am Haitian.
The house was filled with love as Adala performed Reiki on me and talked me into feeling better about a recent bipolar diagnosis "Maybe you're just like that", she said - meaning just prolific and high energy, and occasionally sad. Not sick.

Anyway, it was a beautiful day, which I mention because Adala said, "My daughter has died. I don't think I can go on." That is the only time anyone has ever said that to me, and I read the same words on your page.

An angel has brought me today to say to you that you can go on, even if you don't feel like you can. You don't have to try to force it. Just take one baby step at a time - one small breath at a time. Look at the sun - stay in the sun. Call uplifting, encouraging friends. Remember the good times with your daughter, and talk to her. Talk to her all the time. Talk to her without ceasing. Ask her to communicate to you somehow, how you are to go on. Ask her to guide you. She will answer. In the bend of a leaf on a tree in the breeze - in the look of a cat's peaceful, mysterious eyes, in the sparkling chuckle of an infant. You will feel joy again. Let your daughter lead you to it.

In the meantime, know that I, and many others are praying for your well-being, and your healing.

Love and light,


*Names and other details have been changed for confidentiality.

(c) Copyright 2010 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved.

Comments and messages will be published with the sender's initials.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Orin DaBen & Thaddeus Professionals Newsletter

Greetings, beautiful souls, lightworkers, and other like-minded friends!

I wanted to just check in and share my joy and hope you're feeling wonderful!

Although I said in my most recent newsletter that I was too overwhelmed to manage incoming classifieds ads for inclusion in the Orin DaBen Professionals Newsletter, I changed my mind. I realize this is part of my spiritual "service", and that it doesn't take much time to do this work, once I make the commitment to do so.

Also, I've been so rewarded with Orin/Sanaya's work these days, and inspired by plans to begin teaching their materials, that I'm even more motivated to make the newsletter have as much information about all of YOU as possible!

So, that said, if you are a practitioner of the LuminEssence Products and use them in your work, if you teach workshops based on Orin & DaBen's teachings, or if you use Thaddeus' music as background of your audio or video products, please send me a 100 word max free classified ad, including your public contact info (website, blog, email, etc.) and I will include this in the next newsletter.
You can either send it to my FB inbox here, or email it to me at
Once I receive this, I will put together a newsletter, send it to our now 68 members (and growing!), and also submit it to the larger Orin DaBen Facebook Group for consideration of publication to their members.

I thank you so very much for listening to, and following your own inner light, and in so doing, making the world a much finer place for me to be in.

Love, light, and prosperity to you as you continue your much needed world service,

Cassendre Xavier

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Orin DaBen Professionals Newsletter

Hello, members!

I am grateful to be here now, writing to you, and I am holding a vision of your successful life and projects!

It has been weeks since I've sent a message to the group, and that is partly because I've been doing a lot of creating.

I've uploaded several spoken word, affirmation, guided meditation, musical, and even raw vegan food preparation videos on my YouTube channel Many of these videos feature the background sounds of music of light by Thaddeus, which is performed by Sanaya Roman and is available to order at

I have been treasuring and using the Orin-charged quartz crystals I received as gifts from LuminEssence productions.

Please note the format of the newsletter (in which I research the internet for folks using or teaching Orin/DaBen products) has changed because I received notice that some folks don't want their info publicized.

Also, my schedule is such now that I can not incorporate managing folks' submissions to include in the newsletter.

If you are doing any work using Orin, DaBen, or Thaddeus (Sanaya Roman, Duane Packer PhD) produced works, please post it on the Wall of our Group.

Thank you so very much for being more boldly and joyously yourself!

In spirit,

Amethyste Rah (aka Cassendre Xavier, aka Amrita Waterfalls)

Friday, December 25, 2009

Temporary Houses: a Conversation About Being in the Present

“The only power we have is in the present.” How many times have we heard this, yet we forget so often.
Forgetting to be present in the moment we’re experiencing, not in the past and not in the future, we rob ourselves of the means we have to change our circumstances for the better - to liberate ourselves from painful memories, and to proceed with courage and wo/manifest our truest, most heartfelt desires. As long as we’re not in the moment, we’re not in control of ourselves – and we are the only force that can make a difference in our lives. This is something I’ll remember when I slip into forgetting.
What brings this to mind for me was a recent walk in my new neighborhood. I moved in with a romantic partner who, on the immediate, physical level, is significantly “richer” than I am (although on the astral, quantum leap level, *“M.y O.wn N.atural E.nergy Y.ield” is huge, and I like to think and expect the immediate, physical level will soon reflect that!).
Here is the conversation I was having with myself while on this walk. For what I hope will be entertainment and spiritually assisting purposes, I will pretend two voices are involved, the fearful doubting, disbelieving “voice” (or attitude) and the fearless, faithful, positive one.
One attitude serves the vision of success and abundance. It creates strategies, moves, and circumstances that make one’s dreams come true. It inspires action in the dreamer, and this is crucial, because dreams without action amount to delusion and despair, whereas combining steps, no matter how small or seemingly non-productive, can have tremendous benefit, even if sometimes the only apparent benefit is another moment on the correct path.
“Wow, this is a really beautiful neighborhood. It’s so clean and filled with nature and neighbors who take great care of their homes and lawns. Look at the holiday decorations! Look at all the squirrels! Look at the crows! They’re huge and scary and those sounds they make are awful! I love this place. I feel so good here! This makes me happy!”
“But I feel sad because this place reminds me of my painful childhood. I grew up on a street much like this one. Maybe there are people in these houses who are just as sad as I was many times…. This is depressing. Besides, I can’t afford to live here. I have no money! Plus, we’re not here forever, we’re leaving soon. This is only temporary housing until we move into his “real” house, where the fire was.”
“Sure, there are sad people living everywhere, so there’s bound to be some here. But the world isn’t all depressed and depressing, you know. Not everyone had a difficult childhood. Not every home life is abusive, and not every family is dysfunctional. There’s lots of good in the world – lots of happy times for everyone, including you! And why are you thinking you can’t afford to live here? You live here now, don’t you? You’re here, living here, belonging here, right now! Make the most of this time to visualize different circumstances in which you live in a neighborhood like this and also have significant economic power and presence. And remember, his “real house” is just 3 blocks away, in a very similar and upwardly mobile neighborhood. The house won’t be as pretty as this temporary one, but remember that it’s three times the size, is being repaired, and has the potential to be just as pretty as it was before!”
After talking myself through that temporary funk, I went from feeling happy to sad then happy again.
I remembered that the past is in the past, the future doesn’t exist (it’s all the present – the now), and that all my power was in the now, only. I also chuckled at myself thinking how I’d been living in this neighborhood for months, would continue to for several more weeks, and simultaneously thinking, “I can’t afford to live here!” That’s like being alive and saying over and over again, “I’m dead,” or laughing uproariously during a joke or comedic show and saying, “I’m depressed.” When we focus on the present moment, we are absolutely in a position to make statements that reflect what’s actually happening, not what we fear or feel badly about from the past or so-called future. (And, if what’s happening in our present is sad or scary, we can use our strengths to re-form our thoughts about, and reaction to, those circumstances or emotions.)
I chose to leave my sad feelings and past behind, and to focus on the abundance of the moment. I chose, while walking through the affluent neighborhood, to think of it as mine. I chose to feel as if I belonged. I chose to imagine my bank account reflected my living there. I chose to pretend and speak aloud sentences that matched my dreams, knowing that my consciousness knows no difference between what is so called “real” and what is imagined. Why would I affirm lack, sadness, and poverty and have my consciousness believe and act on it when I could affirm abundance, joy, and affluence when it would believe and act on that just as well?

So, as I type this to you now, I am not doing so as a broke artist in the temporary housing of her beau. I am doing so as a rich woman living in an expensive house and affluent neighborhood – and totally belonging. In fact, I just re-read that last sentence aloud, and did it feel good! In fact, I’ll make an affirmation of it:
“I am a rich woman living in an expensive house and affluent neighborhood in which I belong and feel totally comfortable.”
Well, I gotta tell you I just read that sentence aloud several times and it feels wonderful!
(I also wrote it down and plan to say it regularly.)

What would you dare to want if you knew your consciousness would immediately begin to create it for you?
What thoughts would you think (About money, your career, life, love, your home life, etc.)?
What affirmations would you write (Always beginning with “I am”, “Now I” or something similar)?
And most importantly, what actions would you take (Even the tiniest baby steps count)?

I’d love to hear your comments! Please email them to me at

Recommended: Orin Journeys (guided meditations) by Sanaya Roman, co- author of Creating Money: Keys to Abundance. Self-actualization topics range from money and relationships to breaking addictions/healing self-destructive behavior as well as advanced techniques including channeling and crystal work. Available at (MP3 downloads always $7 and cassettes on sale for just $3 each!”

*MONEY (My Own Natural Energy Yield) – Iyanla Vanzant

Cassendre Xavier [] has been making various forms of art in Philadelphia since 1991. Sometimes recording or writing under the names Amethyste Rah and Amrita Waterfalls, she coined the term “renaissance negresse” in 2002, and founded Philadelphia’s Annual Black Women’s Arts Festival, of which she serves as director, in 2003. Cassendre is a recipient of the Leeway Foundation’s Transformation Award “for work in art and change”. She will be a featured artist (performing her original music and writing) at the Erotic Literary Salon on Tuesday, January 19, 2010.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Orin DaBen Professionals 12/16/09

Orin DaBen Professionals Newsletter 12/16/09

[Disclaimer: Though it features and supports their work, this newsletter is neither produced nor endorsed by LuminEssence Productions, Sanaya Roman, or Duane Packer PhD. Feel free to use and contribute to this newsletter, but refer to, the official website for all your Orin DaBen, LuminEssence Productions, Roman and Packer needs.]




Dear Friends of LuminEssence Productions’ metaphysical authors Sanaya Roman & Duane Packer, channelers of Orin, DaBen, and Thaddeus (music).

Welcome to another edition of the Orin DaBen Professionals Newsletter.
This is where news is shared among folks who use Orin & DaBen books and recordings in their work. Perhaps you record spoken word guided meditations with music by Thaddeus, or use Thaddeus’ music as background in your therapy, massage, yoga, or Reiki practice(s). Maybe you teach Light Body courses.

You are also welcome here if you are a metaphysical healer or other lightworker whose work is supported by Orin & Daben teachings.

It occurs to me that I’ve never mentioned why I write this newsletter. Basically I’m a collector, networker, and community activist. I like to get people together, and I would like to someday collect and own many, many guided meditation and affirmation recordings by my fellow lightworkers and contemporary metaphysical healers featuring music of light by Thaddeus. I am, of course, a major fan of the works of Orin & DaBen/Sanaya Roman & Duane Packer, own Thaddeus recordings and use them in my own work.

It’s my hope that we will network with each other, help promote one another and also purchase from one another.

I also hope you enjoy reading this newsletter and that you find it a positive effort for all involved!

Official Orin & DaBen, Sanaya Roman, Duane Packer PhD & LuminEssence Productions website
Here is where you can get official Orin & DaBen newsletters, products, music downloads, sales (such as the current sale on all cassettes for $3 each!), free affirmations, articles, book excerpts, names and contact info for Light Body teachers worldwide, and much more.

Orin DaBen Professionals Group & Newsletter on Facebook

Orin DaBen Facebook Group

Orin DaBen Yahoo Group

Hi, Amethyste -

I got an email from Breindel Wood on Facebook stating that you are looking for information for any projects that include work by Sanaya Roman & Duane Packer, Ph.D. I want to share with you that I have two CDs that I have recently completed, that have the music provided by Thaddeus. They are beautiful affirmation and acupressure CDs.

If you would like to see more, I have a landing page describing each one, along with the pictures of the CDs themselves.

Unlimited Wealth -
Radiant Health -

If you would like more information about these CDs, please feel free to contact me. I would be thrilled to answer any questions.



Rev. Anne Presuel
The Empowerment Queen ... Empowering you to create your juicy, ideal life!

So...what are you thinking into being?

Connect with me:

Facebook: http://www.Facebook/Rev.Anne.Presuel
EFT & Affirmations Group:
"Think it... Be it... See it!" Page:

Phone: (954) 989-4094


Anneke Rabius
Ik heb een eigen bedrijf in het geven en verzorgen van allerlei workshops op locatie in Nederland en buitenland, zoals bijvoorbeeld Frankrijk. Op dit moment ben ik zoek naar een nieuwe mooie vakantie locatie waar ik volgend jaar mijn workshops kan geven.

Elke tip is welkom!

Zie mijn site: en ook mijn linkenpagina:


Celestial Communication CDs by Lori Daniel Falk, Spiritual Life Coach, Angel Communicator and Painter. These recordings feature music of light by Thaddeus.


The Academy of Awakening was founded by Sue McDonald (Australia), a professional Counsellor, Psychotherapist and Clinical Hypnotherapist. The AOA produces many Affirmation and Meditation CDs & MP3 Downloads featuring the music of Thaddeus.


Mike Brown talks about Focusing on the Essence of Your Heart's Desire - Peace - Love - Freedom - Joy.

Receive a Free Ebook and Video E-Course on the Law of Attraction, visit:
Here’s video/audio of Mike Brown reading Michael Beckwith’s affirmations featuring music of light by Thaddeus:


Teresa Wagner, Animal Communicator & Grief Counselor
Teresa has been offering grief support services for people who have lost their animals since 1986, and began her professional animal communication work in 1991, though she has talked with animals since her childhood. Today she maintains an active animal communication practice, teaching schedule, and is writing a series of books on our relationship with animals, in addition to her audio book on grief and other educational CDs currently available. She has worked with thousands of clients in her practice and classes from the United States, Australia, Belgium, Canada, China, Costa Rica, England, France, Germany, Ireland, Israel, Italy, Jamaica, Japan, Korea, Mexico, Namibia, New Zealand, Russia, South Africa, Switzerland, and Taiwan.
Workshops, Flower Essences, Guided Meditation Recordings featuring music of light by Thaddeus, and more are available at

Noreen Sumpter says:
“I am a Personal Life Coach, located in Brooklyn, NY. I have been working in this most amazing field for over 5 years. If you wish to get to know me or might consider at some point working with me check out my website:”


Joanne & Gerry Jackson (Northern Ireland)
both are Reiki/Seichim Master Teachers
Gerry is a gifted Spiritual Medium
Joanne is an Angel Card Reader

Under my self-assigned soul name Amethyste Rah, I have released two spoken word guided meditation albums in CD and MP3 downloadable format (featuring music of light by Thaddeus – used with permission) for survivors of abuse who may also be dealing with addiction issues: Affirmations for Survivors: Self-Love and Affirmations for Survivors: Spirituality. These are available either from or my official website (click on “Product Order Form). 100% of proceeds from the sale of all Amethyste Rah/Cassendre Xavier products directly benefit Philadelphia’s 7th Annual Black Women’s Arts Festival, of which I am the founder and director.


Creation Lightship


Looking for Light Body Teachers? Visit the official Orin DaBen website for a worldwide index of Light Body teachers and sponsors.


a) Write a 75-word max classified ad.
b) Send it either in a reply to this post, or email it to cxwriting(at) (replace the “at” with “@” before sending).
c) If you’re on Facebook, post a copy on both the Orin DaBen and Orin DaBen Professionals group “Walls”.


May your work be enjoyable and fulfilling to you, may it serve many, and may LuminEssence Productions continue to assist you on your spiritual and professional journey.

See you next time!

In community,

Amethyste Rah (aka Cassendre Xavier, aka Amrita Waterfalls)
renaissance negresse (musician, author, visual artist, actress)

© 2009 by Cassendre Xavier. All rights reserved.